I find every now and then the need to “clean house” and get rid of those that reside in my life, and are not conductive, to what I think I want at that moment.
Recently I removed two people from my contact list. Currently I’m in the process of removing them from my thoughts. They share very little in common, how my mind drew the connections all the same, mainly due to the fact that both of them make me feel… less.
There is just really isn’t any way to put it. One knows better (or by now, she fucking should!) words to me are worthless (I still count them, but that is another tale for another day) how you act, sober or not, busy or not. I’m sure that it’s unintentional that they make me feel like shit, however that almost makes it worse that it stems from their carelessness.
I don’t think that I’m an unreasonable person, I don’t expect people to drop their lives for me (hell, I refuse to change the world so I can shit comfortable*) but once in awhile, I liked to hear from people when they don’t want to use me for something. I do know that I’m difficult person to be friends with. I know that my low expectations for people are so low that I don’t treat them like expectation, I treat them like demands. I demand respect, as I will extend it to you, I demand honesty as I will do the same (both within reasonable situations.) I wont stand for being plan “z” hell I don’t like being plan “b” I WON’T BE YOUR SAFETY!
* Dante Hicks (Clerks)
