New Year new You?

I wish I had more time, but this idea came to me about a month ago, and never had time to type it up. So here we go it is 5:18pm CST 12/31/09. I decided what I would do as my New Years Resolution, I aim to read a literature classics every month.

I’m sure it doesn’t sound like much, but truly that is the idea, I have many horrible habits, but one of them is that I take on things so much bigger than me, and refusing to ask for help. So I believe that progress, may be attained by focusing on what is already in us, and tweaking it. Not an original idea, but nothing about me is original, just the way I throw it all together.


January is “Little Women” but I need suggestions for the other eleven months.


I go on some other things, but I need to get my butt moving if I’m going to have everything done by 9:30.

I’m sure by the time any of you read this it will, no longer be 2009, however be safe, and happy well into the new year, and when you meet your new you, tell them I said Hello….

Forty-Two

There are many or few mysteries in life, depending on how you look at. It is almost possible that for every question there is not only an answer, but that more than one in 6.802 billion (As of 10 December 2009, the Earth's population, is estimated by the United States Census Bureau) that knows the answer, if not you.

Obviously the title of this blog, is from the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy anyone who did not know that need to read it. I’m bringing it up for two reasons one, I’m rereading it, and two it has something to do with the blog as a whole. I think that I’ll be doing a blog on the book as a whole soon, currently I’m reading book five in the trilogy and will probably write it after I finish book six.

When the sleep apnea is not keeping me awake (or more often when I lose control of my mind) I think, or its better to say that I fail to not think. To an extant this has colored me in to the person today by making things more abstract and remote.

I have wondered about many things and would like to share some with you…

1) If humans are deceitful by default, or is it a legacy we receive from those that came before?

2) Do we say the things that we need/ want to hear most?

3)Do we seek out others that posses the trait’s that we want to have?

A) If so is that I search out for extraordinary people?
Uncommon beauty, and digging for diamonds in the rough?

B) Do I attract unstable individuals, and other outcasts?
1) For my appearance of stability
2) The way I blend in to my soundings as if I belong?
3) Is it a combination of the two in the way that I continue to “march on”?

C) Is this the behavior that spawned phrases like “Opposites attract“?

I’m constantly plagued by the feeling (and after sending a few twenty texts, that only four were kind of enough to reply to, that I’m not alone in this) that there is more to life than this. Most that know my well, know well enough to say that while I’m notoriously passionate, I’m not a feeling person, I’m more of a cold equations person. As far as where this “feeling” comes from, why I feel it so strongly, or what it means I couldn’t venture a guess. I’m not even really certain as to when I became aware of it. Only that it makes me feel like I’m endlessly waiting.

Now for the part from HGtG:

So Long, and Thanks for All the Fish, by Douglas Adams
(Book four)

…”but I do need to know what has happened to me, You see there’s this diffrence between us, That you lost something and found it again, and I found something and lost it. I need to find it again.”

I love this passage as it best describes how I feel. I don’t remember when, or how, but I felt so much more….. something I don’t know, not really full, and not at peach, not oneness, or certain, not clear, for a lack of any descriptive, just more.
It’s odd how noticeably I can feel it yet unable to trace it to a source.



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